'narry charity game'

i'm coming out...i want to let it show!

Hey! I haven't written in quite awhile. Well, I've been taken out of my familiar habitat and moved somewhere else (temporarily though). I've been enjoying myself while here but I don't think I would want to move here permanently. I've met quite a few people who have spoken positive things into my life and I've been going to church with my family (honestly, not my cup of tea) but I've been going there every Sunday. I'm planning on going to a Jewish church when I get on my own. Kabbalah sounds cool!
I've started reading again. Never thought I'd be considered a bookworm (again) but lo and behold it has happened. I've gone to the library, thrift store and bookstore and stored up on so many; I feel like a squirrel with a buttload of nuts. I have not only been reading, I've been listening to a lot of music as well. Music is a helpful tool during so many situations -- good or bad.

Peace from the East!!!
'narry charity game'

it takes you up and lets you down.

Well, I haven't done this in awhile. Yeah, about that; I haven't been in the mood. I'm sometimes apathetic; try not to be but it is what is. You can either take it or leave it.
So for the last few months I've been reflecting a bit and life has been like a roller coaster and a seesaw but I'm still hanging in there. Not where I need to be but I ain't gonna lose hope. It's harder than I thought but sometimes I'm comfortable being in this destitute state. No, I don't want to be here for the rest of my life. I have so much to offer the world and I want to make God proud and I also feel like I'm not making Him proud by doing nothing to better myself.
Thankfully I have someone to help me, well, that's what this person says they'll do when they get themselves together. I'd very much appreciate it because all I need is a push; a very firm push at that. Maybe I would like to be guided before the push but still I'll need to be pushed just like the mother eagle does to her baby -- I can either live or just die.
I rather live though.